31 Dec 2005, 12 AM
24 hrs before the first day of 2006... a brand new year, a brand new start... hmm... today went out shopping with vanessa... saw this calender-alike thing, Motto to Success.. haha... Know wat? the first motto to success is to reflect on wat u hv been doing for the past 1 yr on 1st of Jan every year... haha... REFLECTION? ON FIRST DAY OF A BRAND NEW YEAR? haha... i think on the last day of every year is better... coz the next day shld be another new start for ur life how can look back? hahaha...
This past 1 yr... last sem in one instititue and first sem in another... is all just like a dream, this moment graduating and that moment struggling to get used to a new environment... alot of time spent thinking abt alot of stuffs... within this one whole year, seen alot and also learnt abit... starting to understand myself... or shld i say starting to find out that i really dun understand myself well enough? hmm.... haha... abit confusing rite? but nvm la...
Last Semster - Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Start of this year, if i m not wrong, we were all struggling to finish up our last part for FYP... everyone was like so busy... late nights... programming bugs... project demo... reports, pages after pages... screen shots... user manuals... haha... all this end with a full stop the moment our reports were submitted to the office... but this wasn't the end of our busy days... we still had our exams... memorising all the wireless terms... made mi really crazy... worst part was that i was in total blank when taking the exam... haha... after all that exams, everyone of us seem to have graduated... haha... without giving a damn on our results le... haha...
Next was our dear sarah leaving for oversea study... haha... we all was thinking how much we would missed her during assignments periods... haha... sarah = report, report = sarah.. and it was really TRUE... haha... we all missed sarah's perfect english... haha... the farewell dinner, dinner at the airport... looking at sarah leaving Singapore alone to a different environment with mix feelings.. feeling of sadness that we no longer can see her everyday, happy for her that she got her wish of going oversea to gain more experience and know more people... but we all know that we were all under the same sky... haha... looking at the same sun n moon at a different time... haha...
Graduation day, without sarah, we were so afraid of falling on the stage with our heels... haha.... actually nothing really happen on that day... just that we all went out to celebrate after our ceremony... hahha... but this day bark the end of the 3 years poly life... of course not our friendship... hahhaa
month of rotting n slacking days... b4 the start of a new chapter.....
New Chapter
Bidding... haha... slow, troublesome, wu liao, time consuming bidding... haha... but guess we will all hv to get used to it ba.... after all that biddings... start of with a few relaxing weeks... onli lectures... but stressing time was eventually there...
Assignments were bad... clashed! haha... but lucky that i was doing with ailing n dap on 2 assignments... we manage to sort of divide our tasks... ailing had to start on an alien language assignment on her own first... haha... thnx, ailing... while mi n dap had to do jsp programming for the other assignment... report of done mainly by our dear ailing... haha.... mi n dap were like struggling man... haha...especially the last few days... wow, damn stupid... last min found out that we did wrongly... and is TOTALLY WRONG... nearly fainted man... we were all abt to give up le lo... so little time yet so much time to change n do lo...we spents days and nights to do... last night b4 dateline ailing, dap, ck, william, rachel came over my place at 4++ in the afternoon... and we did our assignment all the way to the next morning 6++... NV SLP lo... we were all so so damn tired... haha... but... wat i can say is that our team though 3 person onli... i think we all tried our best, worked well to get things down til the last hr... but if in between i did anything that had caused unhappiness on anyone of u, i hereby apologise... sorry! especially to dap n ailing... sometime, i nv think abt people's feelings b4 toking, so pls forgave mi if i had say any nasty things...
Straight after our assignments, was exams... wow these 2 months or so was so stressful... so many things to be done... guess all of us were thinkingof dropping out ba.. haha DO module... hahaha.... exams were bad... papers were so unexpectedly difficult... really felt abit of demoralised... but after the last paper... all i was thinking was I WANT TO ROT AND SLACK!!! really so tired lo... nights of studying til 4++ then woking up at 6++ 7 to study agn... is like my o'levels' day lo... haha... ori can say even worst... when it was all over, wow the feeling of throwing away a large stone that had been in ur heart... haha... so relaxing....
Took results a week or so ago... wasn't that good... totally sux... haiz... at first was veri disappointed but an wei myself la... first sem onli... try harder lo... wat to do? now doing bidding agn... haha... hopefully bidding will be smooth for everyone... haha...
I guess that shld be able all that had happened this yr... alot of things wasn't expected... not something that u wish to happen.. but i guess we had to just take it n go ba... know a few more friends... from them i learn some stuff too... at times i feel like a extra, someone who doesn't really belong to their group... but i m still learning... learning to let go, learning to be more active.. learning to be more sociable... alot more to learn i guess.
I guess i shld bow n say sorry to people who thinks that i m a real nasty n irriating person... sorry for mi being a straight person, toking without thinking... if i have said anything that had hurt u or make u unhappy, sorry... if i have forgotten anything that i promise, sorry... if i have always been missing in outings, not being active enough, sorry... if i have disappoint u, sorry... and many many more... All i can say is a big SORRY! Hope u all can forgave mi... i will try myself to change for better.
Thanks to people who had helped me... accompany mi when i needed it... chit chat with mi...thanks for being there when i needed someone...thanks for tolerating my nusiance n rubbish... THANKS FOR BEING PART OF MY LIFE! it is blissful to meet every single one of u... thanks...
Guess i shall leave my wish for this coming yr to tml midnite le.. haha... bye everyone... take care :)
